failed another class.
i didn’t go on a field trip……… and that made me miss an assignment so i got an F.
lol. i hate myself.
really doubting myself lately. maybe this isn’t my right path? maybe i need to work harder? maybe it’s all in my head..
my self worth takes another hit.
i really wish this rock in my gut would disappear.
im sinking, and i need to come up for air.
I just feel so stupid. so incredibly irresponsible & now i am regretting it. Fuck.
i just really really really hate presentations.
I dropped some courses this semester cause last semester kicked my ass, and i regret it. I don’t want to take summer school, and i don’t know how i feel graduating after everyone else.
I don’t really care.. i think?
im still horrible, just spend less time in class.
feeling inspired tonight but not knowing where to put my energy.
going to draw out some sketches for potential photoshoots, maybe write some songs & scan some film.
I feel so awake and aware.
I just want to create things.
I think i may try a 52 week project. Not sure. hmmmph.