Like i’ve said, time & time again, i am one person who absolutely sucks at goodbyes, and that is why New Years will always have a special place in my heart. I’m not saying goodbye to anyone, i’m saying goodbye to the time. The time that allowed me to do all of these things.
in 2010 I….
found one of my passions.
my views on life changed dramatically.
i didn’t eat red meat.
i met some of my online friends who mean the world to me.
i found out where i want to live for the rest of my life.
performed at open mic nights & realized i will always love to write music.
became good friends with new people, and outgrew old friends.
In 2010, i’ve done the most changing, emotionally, than i have ever done in my life. Things haven’t become more clear to me, but i am now more aware that i have work to do on myself. It’s like… being in the dark, And not being aware where you are. But then a small light is lit, so you can see that you are in fact in a dark room. What is in the darkness, you don’t exactly know; but you are still inside this room. that probably does not make any sense.
Last year, my resolutions were quite simple: not to eat red meat, be happy & not let the little things bother me. I can’t exactly say i succeeded at any one, BUT the red meat. There is always this year though, and i’m going to let 2011 be my best year. :)
In 2011 I will….
Be kind to myself; both emotionally & physically.
Put myself first, and stick up for myself.
Save up money for school.
Figure myself out.
It’s weird how this year has oddly flew by, but i’m not complaining. This is now my… potentially, final year of high school. I’m almost an adult. It’s almost time for me to move out, and continue with my life… i don’t know if im ready for it.
but that’s the funny thing with New Years. even if you’re not ready for it… it still comes.
“You spend your whole life stuck in the labyrinth, thinking about how you’ll escape it one day, and how awesome it will be, and imagining that future keeps you going, but you never do it. You just use the future to escape the present.”—Looking For Alaska, John Green (via thetruthisout)